hello girlfriends out there. :D ohmygosh, i think i'm too far alrdy. kept delaying days after days, for not updating? oh regine babydar, relacx lah. haha, i update ler, happy? xD well, i don't feel like blogging, and there's a reason. main thing is because of my depression. & tht's tht.

22nd july.
back home late, as i've cca on tht day. came back home @ some particular time around 7 something. received call from dad. he said tht my uncle could not help w/ his pain, and he left us. he died out of stomach cancer. the news for his cancer was since last year. whereas, the news for his death, was such a, well, a sad thing yaw. he's so ever a great uncle i've ever met. so far, i never met his angry look before. guess tht he never got angry before?

well, the important thing is tht, i'm worried for my cousins. eugene, who's done w/ NS, who's got a license last year w/ the guidance of his father, and now working. he studied university. as for jaslyn, she's done w/ her 'O's. she did quite well, and inthend, she chose to go for poly as she don't want to stress herself out, i guess. jaslyn's 17years old only, and her father left her. sad right?

23rd july.
went to his funeral, which was in yishun blk 274. at night tht time alrdy. saw his photo, was dam shocked. father told us to greet. (actually, this' my first time to a funeral.) went to sit aft tht. father asked to go see my uncle in his coffin. i wasn't daring enough to go. since my mother also don't want me to go look, as she knew i'm very timid. -.- well, better in any way.

25th july.
went back to funeral again. and this time, i really went to look inside the coffin. aft walking one round, i came back crying. i was dam shocked, and scared. and sad. and and depressed. he's so thin. omg? the time was alrdy 8-9plus when we reached the funeral? cause before tht went AJC for sister's parents' meeting. acc mum there.

26th july.
today's last day alrdy. the day when my uncle's body will be burnt into ashes, and will be forever gone w/ his body. last day, last day to take a peep on him. he was very honoured. he's a commander officer, and further positions. his colleagues, his juniors, seniors, officers, commandoes, superbisor all came. had some speech thing, which i cried again. (cant control) aft tht, went up bus to mandai cemetery. and tht's when i can't really hold my heart breathing. ><

waited in the hall for other spectators come. photo was later been put. aft tht, coffin came in. oh, is the hall really cold? or issit because of my nervousness tht i feel dam cold tht i'm dying too? well, i was really cold you know, like mad! x0 eugene gave speech to the crowd. which made almost everyone in the hall cry. aft tht, my small uncle nicholas gave speech also. made us all cry again T.T

aft tht what happened, shall not elaborate.
byes, babes. thanks readers for comments. :)

hello earthlings out thr. :D i'm here to post, again & finally. went vivian's hse today, w/ cheryl along. helped vivian's friends to their project. i was very keesiao can, laughlaughlaughs. fun yo, joan/joanne. :D! was really confused by then -.- family offence happened today yeah. shall not elaborate on tht alright. :)

went woodlands centre after tht. bought some stuffs. well, very confused. sorry dearest sweetpie and kelian wifey. D: heartbroken, see you all b'cause of me, suffer. glad tht i'm willing to give you'all treats <: pretty sorry.

went yishun w/ cheryl aft tht, when vivian went back home. pasarmalam, saw our desired pouches. wanted to be twnnies. but, there's not enough for each of us. D: so didn't buy any. dam unlucky, i was very damp. wet, raining eh! ): drenched T.T

aft tht, trained home. :D

bye lovers♥

yeah, today was fun! :D woah, as if can? xD lols, i don't know whether i shall say fun or not luh. haish, today i not in good mood again. x( today recess cheryl pangseh me T.T eateateat -.- kays nevermind. i stayed in class for some completion then went down canteen with queenie. :D then saw them eateateat again -.- then i went to drink ice lemon tea. :D then, they made fun of me. choco drank my icelemontea without my further notice. i don't let queenie drink, don't know why? :) then cheryl without my permission/notice come drink my lemontea. -.- then she laughed. after that pangseh me again. hao yi si worh D':

12.25pm, dancers including cheryl went off for competition.

we: shermaine, najwa, farah, khairunisah, joli, choco, & xinyi went off earlier min-time during hall assembly. we went for bookshop. then shermaine helped me bought a chicken burger while i went toilet. && later then i found out that she put mayo and chilli sauce! i dont eat chilli, and i dislike mayo! omggg. i asked her eat away those clearly-seen reddish sauce xD haha. then up on schl bus, sat with shermaine. played rubix and listen to our SYF music song. <:

reached ngee ann poly early. sat there waitwaitwait in the cold meeting room. we talked, played, laughed. fun :) then presentation soon started after some other schls arrived. well, firstly, the male presenter was presenting boringly. :S damn, waste our time huh, LOL. ;x meanwhile, phone rangrang&rang. :o how am i suppose to pick up uhs. x then choonhup sent a message whether i'm turning up for practice or not. OMG, now then i found out i forgot to inform them about my science fair. :)

well, farah & najwa sat beside me all the while. they're humourous. x) farah, iloveyou! :D

17 10, we were dismissed. 17 36, we reached schl. we went co room outside wait for chance to go in. haha! :D 18 06, liu laoshi came out. greeted him, and asked us go in, heh! x: then, we had nothing better to do, went inside and clapped for 3 people's birthdays. brenda's one of them. xP

then, before going in the co room, cheryl passed by me and as if she had not seen me. i asked her wait for me on the bench outside the room, and she nodded. after that, she sms-ed me and asked me go bus-stop find her. when i reached bus-stop, she was chatting happily with her dancers from my class. they were so happy cansxz. cheryl turned and looked behind. i didnt expect her to see me. and she said, 'sorry, i never see you. i'm spotting the bus.' then turned back. hurhur, yaya, very funny, HAHAHA. up the bus, didnt talk to her a single word. chatted with joan nuer, jiale, and landai happily! :) they were super cute worhs! :D

haha, then i went to 911 bus-stop with landai. :D paused @ 178 stop, as people boarding bus. darren was talking to a boy behind, and i coincidentally turned back to look for jiale. and he shouted 'SHUTUPLAH' at my ear. -.- i'm a percussionist eh, ear almost can't hear properly alrd, still want shout at my ear till deaf! LOL. -.-

happy birthday, natasha la0g0ng! iloveyou for life! :)
tmorrow's landai's birthday! 090708! hee. :)

saying hello to all butter friends out there, aka, in here. :) miss me not, guys? heheh, veryvery long ago, i just posted once. omg. i know it's bloody horrible. x) can i say i'm busy or lazy uhs? ya, lazy luhs, xDD haha. ARGH, i'm so bored! )x heh, math homework haven't done yet. x.x hohoo, just now went out immediately after knowing jiale'll lend me her math textbook. :D haha, i lost my 1A math textbook in a million years ago, && i got to share textbook with xinyi during math lessons. lols, paiseh uhs :/ hais, now still haven't change to 1B yet. so slow. faster lar, then i need not harass xinyi anymore. :D

yay. x) tomorrow meeting up with wuguii dabianns. ((: tomorrow going to celebrate youth day (although it's today), cum natasha laogong's && huiming lollipop's birthdays! :D hees, nat's on 8th july while huiming's 9th july. :) hoho, quite excited cans. cause veryvery seldom can go out with nat & huiming. :p hehee. best wishes for them! :)

er, i think i'll post more about it after that, okay?! got to go. OMG. math homeworking now. hoho, i'm one hardworking stud. x]