Thursday, July 31, 2008

hello girlfriends out there. :D ohmygosh, i think i'm too far alrdy. kept delaying days after days, for not updating? oh regine babydar, relacx lah. haha, i update ler, happy? xD well, i don't feel like blogging, and there's a reason. main thing is because of my depression. & tht's tht.

22nd july.
back home late, as i've cca on tht day. came back home @ some particular time around 7 something. received call from dad. he said tht my uncle could not help w/ his pain, and he left us. he died out of stomach cancer. the news for his cancer was since last year. whereas, the news for his death, was such a, well, a sad thing yaw. he's so ever a great uncle i've ever met. so far, i never met his angry look before. guess tht he never got angry before?

well, the important thing is tht, i'm worried for my cousins. eugene, who's done w/ NS, who's got a license last year w/ the guidance of his father, and now working. he studied university. as for jaslyn, she's done w/ her 'O's. she did quite well, and inthend, she chose to go for poly as she don't want to stress herself out, i guess. jaslyn's 17years old only, and her father left her. sad right?

23rd july.
went to his funeral, which was in yishun blk 274. at night tht time alrdy. saw his photo, was dam shocked. father told us to greet. (actually, this' my first time to a funeral.) went to sit aft tht. father asked to go see my uncle in his coffin. i wasn't daring enough to go. since my mother also don't want me to go look, as she knew i'm very timid. -.- well, better in any way.

25th july.
went back to funeral again. and this time, i really went to look inside the coffin. aft walking one round, i came back crying. i was dam shocked, and scared. and sad. and and depressed. he's so thin. omg? the time was alrdy 8-9plus when we reached the funeral? cause before tht went AJC for sister's parents' meeting. acc mum there.

26th july.
today's last day alrdy. the day when my uncle's body will be burnt into ashes, and will be forever gone w/ his body. last day, last day to take a peep on him. he was very honoured. he's a commander officer, and further positions. his colleagues, his juniors, seniors, officers, commandoes, superbisor all came. had some speech thing, which i cried again. (cant control) aft tht, went up bus to mandai cemetery. and tht's when i can't really hold my heart breathing. ><

waited in the hall for other spectators come. photo was later been put. aft tht, coffin came in. oh, is the hall really cold? or issit because of my nervousness tht i feel dam cold tht i'm dying too? well, i was really cold you know, like mad! x0 eugene gave speech to the crowd. which made almost everyone in the hall cry. aft tht, my small uncle nicholas gave speech also. made us all cry again T.T

aft tht what happened, shall not elaborate.
byes, babes. thanks readers for comments. :)