hi :D i'm finally posting.
now raining cats & dogs, was initially stuck at school, but all thanks to ohyushi who sent me back home safe (:
co today was ok ~ had problems coping with seniors and juniors and members. i have difficulties asking them to keep quiet. so i gave them my attitude cause i'm far too pissed off that time. but when i think back again, i'm so sorry :O
anyway, had YOG trip today also, during schl hours :D
sorry cheryl but i was veryvery emo during the bus trips and i didnt talk to you at all. these days i'm like that, i dont know why :'(
had seen my overall results for MYE today. no A(s). maybe this' the reason i had been emoing for? or...? well, i'm quite disappointed alr.
i got a 69/100 for english, and i tried so hard to beg miss azleen for one more mark, but couldnt. i scored 57/100 for math, and i made a big improvement on that. chinese ~ i'm not so sure but i got a B :D quite happy alr cause i finally passed my chi ! :) Literature, also forgotten, but its a B grade. almost 70 (A) alr, but of course still couldnt beg for anymore marks :[ science, it's a C grade :O art, a B, quite a surprise i didnt get A? T.T homec, B. i think lowest again. -.- hist, fail. duh -.-?
didnt meet my expectations. didnt meet my teachers' expectations. die
i keep thinking that i'm falling behind
i keep thinking that i'm being used
i keep thinking that you're never mine
i keep thinking that i am useless
but you once grasped me
and supported me
you cheered for me; like you always do
you blamed me for using people yet never
and you also once reiterate that you're forever mine
before you leave, you said that i'm a lively
and cheerful lil girl
but now the words can never be repeated again
i dont have a time machine
and so time cannot be travelled back again
whats done cannot be undone
we will live in separate worlds
and hope to never see you again
but i kept thinking of the impossibility for
i had nothing more to think of except to think of
you
Thursday, May 21, 2009
i keep thinking that i'm failing to live